Okay so everybody has to do this once or more in their life....

Thanks people, more so to everybody whose given me some type of idea to toss inside my already busy mind, which needless to say has helped me come up with alot of my poems and a few help create some means of a plot in my novel which I'm still working on.

The first book I must say is kinda kicking my ass cause there is some much information to get out before the next two books can be read where the real FUN happens with battles etc... But it's coming along maybe I can get it to at least 48 pages before the Yule aka my birthday which would allow it to be a full book in publisher terms and get it placed a on shelf before the Spring.

But yes, thank you everybody, messes I've gotten into and art wise.
Some special thanks to:

Emilio- Yes you get placed in this lovely bunch too.

Kurtiss- You've followed my writing and drawings since 8th grade back in Mr. J's, Mrs. Chubb's / Mrs. Peyton's and gave me some serious input way back when.

James- You gave me some advise here and there later on down the road Sophomore year.

Chris- Well your input has been there too for my poems.

Mindy- You've been there from the start need I say more big-sis?

Raphael- From dropping that damn Bible and Dictionary on my head to College now you've read every ounce of my work even if it caused us to stay up until five in the morning discussing and we had classes the next day.

So I have been on this Art kick for a week now. Thinking and breathing nothing, but Fine Arts. This including playing my guitar, clarinet, on the school piano, working on my novel, several poems one for Damion since last Saturday was our year anniversary, composing music, creating play-lists so that each and every song matches the rhythm of the song prior to it, dancing everything that is for the most part considered to be apart of traditional fine arts.

Okay so... I've not been on Deviant Art since like I left Texas and stuff I thought I'd have a bunch of things in the Deviations which I do actually there's about 2,463 in there I had 5 polls, 3 random things, 6 messages all saying the same thing. They all said I should get my writing published. Okay so here is the thing people so all of you lay off. I'm WORKING ON IT!!!! Those of you who have added me on Myspace or IM already know this, but this is for the rest of ya'll. I've got to finish my novel first then I can worry about the poems, the poems just have to be reviewed and talked over since I'm a member of the International Poetry Society and they review your stuff base it on it weight in before publishing. So yeah that's the writing update.

"Little Geal" that's the first thing I heard what fun after 12 years out on a nice camping trip, then two words that lead to pats on the head questions of life.

So it seems that the point I have tried to prove over and over again, but for some reason people still argue my point for whatever reason has occured once again. What's my point, that for everything 'good' in our lives there is always an equal 'bad' too. Whether it's Karma or 'God' playing a sick joke on man I've yet to figure out.
Either way they seem to follow each other hand and hand, like big brother protecting little sister from the stupid self-centered childish for lack there of words fit enough to describe, boys I guess one could say not guys or men, boys. (Don't take this the wrong way guys, it's not you I directly attack, just the childish boys who can't get over themselves that I'm attacking.)
We all want to be loved by someone outside of our family, that significant other who makes us all happy, we can trust when the hypocrite world knocks us off our feet, etc... but why is it with doing so sorrow at points seems to do more damage to us? Yes, it can cause us to remember why we 'love' that person and makes our bond grow so much stronger than what it once was, but when it doesn't is what I'm getting at more so. What then? What do we do as people as beings that are said to be the most intellegent superior to all other beings? We either do one of two things: A) cut the connection or B) fall into an ignorant state of mind and forget it all in hopes things get better. Which really cutting that connection is not too different from being ignorant. Cutting the connection may be more or less freeing us from the bad thus spearing us from the pain, but all we are really doing is running from the problem which is what being ignorant to the problem is, running from it and never correcting the problem.
We move on with our lives or do we? No, we really don't. Why? The simple fact is that everybody at the core is THE SAME. We want and need the same things we just have different ways of getting what we need and want.
So here is the lovely question if it 'love' is the root of all joy and sorrow then why do we want it and need it so much? Why do we insist on going after the one thing we perhaps weren't meant to have? Love is both 'Heaven' and 'Hell' I don't beleive in either of those places, so for those who are like me I'll put it like this; love is both joy and sorrow, good and evil, hopefully those make sense if not then maybe paradise and utter misery. You should get the point though. Why, why must we continue chasing this one star?