A thousand miles apart with an ocean in between and yet the words of return seem to amount to little, if not nothing.
Since I appear to be the fool for falling in love with someone, will someone explain to me why I try to fight and hold on to something that appears to be one-sided?
It appears that even after nearly ten months of loyalty and trusting someone more than any other person I'm some how still trying to prove I deserve this person's love.
Regardless of all the things I've tried, minus the last card I have in my hand, which is the most risky to play of all, since if it's played I'd risk one of two possible outcomes. One losing more than just a friend and a lover. Two I could also gain an enormous amount that could benefit me and the other person.
We gamble life around, yet they call us fools for playing and relying on chance. When they themselves have no sense of possible outcomes. Who really is the fool?

What would you do if someone you cared about dearly was likely just a matter of steps away from passing?
Would the thought nearly, scare you so much that you feel your heart stop beating and your ability to breathe becomes so faint you can't even tell if you are still really breathing or not?
Would you be the stronger one who withdraws the idea of someone close to you nearly fully slipping away from you, in order for that other person to know when they do leave you'll be ready to let them go and move on with your life?
Would you be the one to say that it's all apart of life and that both life and death are just as natural as the air we breath, so there is nothing to be upset about because you at the very least got to know some kind of happiness regardless of how it didn't turn out the way you pictured it inside your mind?
Would you still care about that person just as much as you did prior, would it grow somewhat in your eyes, or would you abandon them all together to avoid hurting yourself and maybe them, cause you feel perhaps it's your fault it happened even though the odds are it could have had nothing to do with you?

There are those moments in a persons life when they feel it's time for change, doesn't matter what type of change, but they know something has to change. Human nature really, change is what helps us all grow and evolve into a more complex being.
Well, sometimes that change may sever cords that you're not so sure you want to have cut from you just yet, because you realize once you have that connection or cord cut having it rewired and restoring it to how it once was may be almost impossible. However, the truth of the matter is no matter how or what you do the sands of time always change something about you and make the things we thought were utterly simple more complex and difficult to do.

I'm back to Deviant Art people! Though I'm not going to be posting my new hardcore writing sorry people, but due to the fact I've got my new writing being reviewed to be published like "Query of Assurance" has been I've got to keep my other works off the net. Don't worry though I've got tons of good things in store for everyone.

Well another year has past, guess that means I'm getting closer to death. Or am i getting closer to another life? Oh how I do wonder. As do I wonder how this 18th year is going to be different, what's the next roller-coaster got in store for me? Hope it's something grand cause the ride lost it's edge when it took me from Heidelberg and crashed into Savannah.