Hello,
My crazy little people...
Hope everyone is doing well. The new artwork is starting to come in so keep watching. Also for my closer buds cause I know some people have been asking me to sketch out their tattoos. I'm fine with doing so just tell me what you want, how you want it, and I'll do my thing with the pencil and paper. Just don't forget to tell the guy inking you who did the design. Give the credit were it should go etc...

Take care and if I don't hear from some of you have a Blessed Beltane and be safe.



~[link] <--- You Want To Click It
You Have To
But You Can't
Or Can You?

Well I'm happy as ever. I hooked up the router so now I'll be on Deviant Art more often and my posts will be more frequent.

The best part is I did all by myself with no help and everyone thought I would need help.

Oh yeah! And from this lovely result I've managed to get out of my stone age music too so I'm coming up to speed really quick.

Currently though the art world is about the same only I do Tattoo sketches for people around here I've managed to do four including my own and all have been pleased with the results and detail that they asked for. So once the scanner is up and running again I'll be posting up my designs for everyone to see.

So the novel is back on the road and I should be posting the chapters up piece by piece since I know nobody ever reads it in one entire day like I posted my past stories.

Some of you have already read parts of it, but I assure you all theres a lot going on but it all boils down to the end of all life. That's the short way. But to get there you've got murders and romance, betrayal, war, etc.. All the things including that one character who is a total smart ass like Cain.

Everyone else well... Read an find out who is who and discover how it comes down in the year 2012.

The Anthology of poems is back in motion as well and is being carefully thought out on which poems to put together and which ones are just better off in the scrapbook.

Photography and drawing are also in gear too. So watch out people there's going to be a lot coming out and it's going to hit you if you aren't ready.

The month of April promises rain for the rebirth soon to follow in May. With it all the winds have shifted from the west to the east as Beltane draws closer making full proof that when Bridget greets us with her warmth that we are ready to start this means of birth.

Somethings may have not come to pass before and maybe that's because we weren't ready or it wasn't suppose to happen, at least not to us. We just had to play the part in order for whoever it was suppose to happen to fill the spot or as some would say guide the unknown person along until they headed down that path.

With the rapid changes people have come and gone. Some by death, others by their ultimatums that they choose to "force feed" to people close to them. Hearts have felt pain and scabs have been removed to show new life under the wound. From it all things have begun to justify themselves thus shaping a better person/s or being/s.

It's 22 days and counting so far until I hopefully get to go back home for the break see my partners in crime and someone else who I've got things to settle with.

Aside from the fact the last three attempts have been shit and mom being her usual paranoid self that if I go back there I'm bound to screw up my life in someway or form... As if I hadn't already been there kicked it's ass when I was a wee lass in the 9th grade with the smoking and drinking I picked up that later increased and put me in some shadowy hours...

At this point in my life I can't really screw it up. I've gotten pass the number one fear that my mother had, which was me having a kid like she did when she was 16. So I'm kid free.
I got into some drugs she doesn't know that nor does she need to either, however even though I got into them I quit just as fast as I started without all that bullshit rehab crap.
Dated a bunch of jerks and survived them all. Been through the "OMFGS what is going on, this can't be happening moments" and both Dana and Bridget know I've had enough that have put me into some "shut-down" moods where I refuse all means of humanity and turn into a lifeless snarling bitch who attacks the first person who tries to pity me.
Along with some other stuff both good and bad, but mostly bad until that bad shapes me into a grounded person which is good to be grounded.

Yes indeed things seem to be normal for my slowly dying teenage life. Yet I think that might be the problem... I've changed from what my partners in crime and that specific person know. So much that now it's got me worried. None of them have seen me in well over a year. They might be able to pick me out of crowd by my features but over the year I've went through so much without them at my side. I can't help, but feel like the "lone wolf" who was taken from their pack to be studied by humans then after putting me through "shell shock or homesickness" they decide to release me back into the wild after they've pretty much broken me down to the point I might as well be relying on humans to care for me.

I want to go back home, be with my "pack" so to speak, but it's hard to know how things are going to turn out after the span of time. Will they need me? After all I got quite a few of them through the drama etc... Are things going to pick up as they were before? Partying, jamming in Koray's garage, heading downtown to enjoy the cultural vibe that sweeps across the HauptStrasse all of that stuff. Is it going to be as I remember it or is it going to just as strange to me as it will be when Damion catches eye of me for the first time since November 11th when he drove me to the skate park to tell me how much he was going to miss me and that he loved me and that he wasn't going to say goodbye to me either cause I swore to find a back home etc...